Dear Diary.... ♥

11:20 PM

Some pictures taken over the past two days....
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drooling at the brownies and oreo cheesecake? =p

me, dear and linda at sassy bar. [half drunk state?] lol.

oreo cheesecakes again at TCC. chilling, chatting, relaxing at TCC. Cuzzie Jaz and me. Miss her alot. :))

12:36 AM

It's already 3.47pm, and i just woke up only. Wowowow. Head still spinning.

Ytd after school went down to orchard cine to meet Linda. Sat at cafe and chatted alot for i think 2 hour plus? :) Then did abit of late night shopping. :D (It's the last friday of the month!)

Then went down to find bi after his work with Linda too. Then all of us decided go boat quay eat supper, with Jeffery and his wife along too. After eating, ended up chilling at sassy bar. Wow, super long never go there already, since january i think.

Drank, chat, played games with bi and Linda. Played "No.30" card game till super funny. Kept losing. -.- Chivas plus greeeen tea. Bi and i drank quite alot. Loved it so much when he hugged me from the back. And he's very worried bout me when i'm at there, kept holding me v tight. :) Scared got 'bad' ppl. Haha. Den played 5-10 with Jeffery till super hiong i tell you. Screaming here and there. Hahaha.

My dear linda, you must cheer up okay? You've alr promised you'll be strong, and i know you are a v strong girl. Prove to him, like wad john and i said to you ok? Will always be here for you, muacks. :)

*Lindaaaa! I've link you at my blog alr! Heh. Loves!*

Superrrr tired and giddy, reached home already 3.30am like that alr. And i stink of those smoke and alcohol smell. Yuck. Bathed and slept till now. Okay later going out with Jaz i think. :)

"I will never give up on our love. Never."
"Nothing will stand in our way of love, Baby."
You know that i love you,
and i know that you love me too.
After all these tt you said to me, i hope they will be standing strong in our love, till the end, till eternity.

This is Love.

7:45 PM

TWO THINGS I DESPERATELY WANT NOW:
-I WANT MY BURBERRY MARGARET BAGGGGGG!!!
-I WANT TO GET MY EYE-BROWS TRIMMED ASAP!!!

Most importantly, i just want a simple love to love. I'll be contented.

Watched Transformer yesterday at The Cathay, with him, Jiaying and Ivan (her bf). Nice show. Thrilling. Rating 4/5 stars. Jiaying bought donuts from raffles city for me again! Super nice of her. Loves so much. :) Stayed together all the way till night.

It's another day i've to face again. My head is splitting, yet still gotta drag myself outta my bed. SCHOOOOOOOOL. -.- I don't feel good. Just don't feel right. Head is splitting, no appetite, stomach upset. Argh whatever.

Don't know why nowadays i keep feeling so sleepy, sleep quite early. Anyway, it's good for me i guess. Keep sleeping and sleeping, don't wanna do or care anything in my life. Just keep sleeping, living in the visual world. So tired. Sometimes i really wished i could just sleep, and never wake up so fast..............

Love doesn't make the world go around. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile. Where is the old Joy, always so cheerful and happy, never fails to laugh at anything, always so talkative and makes everyone laughs? Where is she? I miss her... Every tears shed, tells how much i really really miss you.

sitting on the seat i loved most.

trying hard to smile. :)

pris and me in school today. :)

taken some time ago, trying to act stupid with pritheeba! :D

I'm now starting to love all those oldies songs back. Simply so meaningful and soothing. :)

6:00 AM

I really feel that i'm the dumbest girl on earth. I'm such a fucking idiot fool. I feel totally sucky now. I thought i will cry so hard so hard. But surprisingly, i did not. Why? Is it because my tears has ran dry?

原来这才是真的你.................

4:18 AM

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Just finished having my breakdance lessons. In the studio using geraldine's lappy now! (:

Yesterday went to geylang's 126 famous dim sum there and eat dinner. Wahlau effinggggg full! Ate super alot alot with daddy. Miss daddy so much. :( Okay oh yeah, learnt new stuns again today. WORM. You know those, lying on the floor and doing your body like a worm thang yo? Lol.

And yes, finally bought the CARGO PANTS for dancing! Yays, satisfied. But quite ex. :( Took many pictures with darlings geraldine and melody! But i'm too tired to upload them now. Promise to post tmr okay? I am soo going to sleep early tonight. I need plenty of rest tonight. Yawns. Tmr meeting jiaying after sch. Miss tt girl! :)

HAHAHA, some people are behaving like a laughing stock and makes me wanna laugh at them soo loudly on their behavior and thinkings. OMG. *Laughs!* Hahahahahaha.......

9:12 PM

OMG OMG OMG!! BABY ALLY IS REAL SUPER CUTE! CUTEST BABY EVER! LOVE! Really super damn cute can! Omg i'm melting! [MUST SEE THE VIDEOS! CONFIRM MUST SEE! :D]

Have been working on sat and sun, just to sub my dearrrrr WENDEE's work lor. Haha, that dear girl of mine so shuang, go cruise eh! Hope she enjoys! :) Miss her effing hard can.

Sat, worked at Bugis. But my big baby wasn't working. :( Yeah but still enjoyed! Missed my lovely colleagues there and we crapped and all lah. So nice to work there again. Sun, worked at J8. Not that fun, but knew another new friend, Noelle, SE promoter! Super nice-plus-sweet girl! Loves!! :D Then at night went to meet him. Always love it when he hugs and cuddles me, so heart-warming. My silly him, lay on me and fell asleep. Awww.... :)

TODAYYYYYY NOW IM IN SCHOOL AGAIN. BOOHOO, SCH ALWAYS START SO FAST. Enterprise module today and my most hated faci is absent today! Weeees, happy! :D After school meeting daddy hopefully!!

"The supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved."
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hahah, look i'm retardly on HD tv outside store! HAHA.

cam-whoring again with darling jo in class!! AHA.

7:20 PM

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Yesterday, left school during 2nd break, went down to ST to find him. Slack there, chatting alot with Desmond. He's ALWAYS damn funny lah. -.- Haha.

Stayed there till like 4plus, and went his house and bathed and all, then went to Marina Square. Had his job interview done there, and walked around. Dined at Pizza Hut, and watched Fantastic 4. Nice show. Rating 4/5. Spent my whole day with him till night, and he sent me to Jinghong's house.

IT'S MR SWI JINGHONG MY BRO'S 19 BIG DAY!! :D Happy birthday bro! Gathering and all that, with po, nen, tong, mer, hai, kok, wei, summer.... Till around 1am? And went home sleep. Tired. :(

TODAY IS THE MOST FUNNY DAY I'VE EVER HAD IN RP. I ACTUALLY BROKE INTO LAUGHTER SOOO LOUD IN CLASS! Laughed til i squat down, THEN I FELL ON THE GROUND. -.- Super retarded. Gabriel rly made me laughed till i wanna dieee....

And after school, skipped hiphop lessons today. :( Don't have the mood to dance today, my body not 'on form'. Haha, and so, went walking around with my dear Syaza!! Super happy!! Been ages since we've caught up with each other, talked heart-to-heart and laughed so hard. Walked around at AMK hub, bought stuffs for her Shafiq and all. Went home after that. Quite tired.

Oh yeah, my hubby's sister, jiaying came to my place area, and she actually went to Raffles City and bought donuts for meeee! Tts real sweet of her! Super shocked. :D Thks alot girl. Love ya!! And i'm going down to meet Linda now. :) Another chatting session. Heh bye folks.

I DONT LIKE RP. ITS FREAKING COLD CAN!?
(P.s: Thks Kaiwei for lending me your jacket!! :D)
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ben's lappy is spoilt. =( aww, and ppl are trying to fix it!concentrating hard.....okay. these pics are real. they took my hp to take candid shot when i laugh. fucking bad. =(this most retarded guy is GABRIEL!! hahahah.the donuts jiaying bought for me! yummy!! :Di sew cute stuffs on my laptop slipcase, and got a skin for my lappy!! CUTE! :D my things ard me are getting nicer and cuter! can't live w/o them. :) XINGFU!

It's a nerdy me with specs, on our precious car, on MY SEAT. :)

7:35 AM

Was taking the mrt train home, and i really realised some singaporeans are really very TYPICAL! Made me despise them so much. *Rolls eyes*

The train was super packed with many people. And naturally, Wendee and i don't have space to sit, but to also stand and squeeze. -.- And this very old couple boarded the train, i think they're around the age of 70 alr. They managed to squeeze through and stand in the middle of the passenger seats there.

Those people sitting on the seats saw this old couple, couldn't even stand straight & still and balance themselves, AND THEY LOOKED FROM HEAD TO TOE, AND THEN IGNORED! NO ONE ACTUALLY GAVE UP THEIR SEATS FOR THEM! Fuck, and it's like a effing long journey from Douby Ghaut till Yishun la?! THEY'RE STANDING THROUGHOUT!

MY GOODNESS, I CAN'T BELIEVE THERE SUCH SELFISH SINGAPOREANS! PISSED OFF!!!

Okay anyway i got this from Yingxian's friendster. Our class collage? Haha cute!! (P.S: THE PICS TAKEN ARE LONG TIME AGO BEFORE WE ENROL INTO RP. LOOK SUPER TOOT!! =p)

And now this is US with formal dresscode! W14A is so much love! :)

7:15 PM

So, this is what you do, on the first day of school reopen. BORING! (Steals gabriel's lappy and play on webcam!)

Ok, i haven't blogged for centuries again. Sorry readers. (But anyw i doubt there is many.) Wow, so many days didn't blog, hard to blog about my days. But wells, every day was spent well! BUT bad new is that, SCHOOL HAS REOPENED. Darn. School reopen = Lesser time for my girlfriends, for him, for enjoyment, for everything lah!

Today was such a bad day. Because of upset matters, i missed my presentation. SIGH. There goes my grades. :( But nvm. After school, hiphop dance lesson. Breakdance again. -.- Man, i'm starting to detest breakdance! Very painful you know. Learnt two other new stuns, SHOULDER FREEZE & CHAIR. Omg, it's rly painful. And i fell many times, hands no strength. Zzz! My shoulders now blue-black. What a day. Anyway, met my darling WENDEEEEE! :D

Super happy can! I miss my girl so effing much. :D Yay, laughed and talked alot alot. I can only laughed so hard when she's around. Walked at cwp, saw YANHAN. :)

Many things happened in between too. Many things has resolved, thank god. Anyway, wow i hope theres some BIATCHOLOGICAL WOMAN will be reading my blog! The following paragraph below is for you yo! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. :)

Actually i really don't hate you in the first place. I was okay, and didn't even tend to care abt all these nonsense at all. BUT IT SEEMS THAT YOU'RE OVER-DOING IT ISN'T?! Pls, know your limits okay. You made me, actually dont even hate you, now you made me despise you so much!! You know who i am, you know i am his girlfriend. THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS ABOUT US. We are so perfect, until i think you're jealous right. You knew i'm his gf, and i didn't expect you to be so desperate?? Steal people's boyfriend. WOW I'M SO AMAZED! You need love ar? No people to love you until you come and find my bf is it? Oh my, i pity you so much. But please get this clear, you're just so WISHFUL-THINKING, ONE-SIDED. You think he'll like you this kind of pattern girl?? Hell no! For god's sake, open your eyes big. YOU JUST ARE BEING USED. So desperate. You really disgrace us women. Pls la, always love to spoil people's relationship. Not even my bf, last time you also love to fall for men who are attached. You LOOOVE to break couples up is it? You feel GOOD is it? The thought of you really disgusts me alot. You are non other than just an OUTSIDER, a THIRD-PARTY! Hello, get this clear. No matter what you write, what you post, we're sooo not gonna get affected by you! Booo lah! I shd thank you yah. Don't be so thick-skinned can. Only know how to snatch ppl's bf and spoil ppl's relationship, you simply don't know what is true love! Pathetic! Just to let you know, MANY PEOPLE HATES YOU. Your friends even? Haha, stupid and you don't know. You know why? Cos you're already 'WELL-KNOWN'! You shd know what you do la hor? ASK YOURSELF. Don't disturb our life! =) THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR COORPERATION. Bye.

In school now. And i'm freeeezing! :(

Some random pics. =)

9:49 AM

Oh yah, i've decided to work once again. Managed to psyco mom, it was soo tough lah. Ok, it's some part-time promoter job working at Best Denki selling LG mp4 players. Pay quite acceptable for me. Starting work this sat! Nervous. Feel so stranger to a new workplace. (Still waiting for NUM's job reply! But meanwhile will work this first.) No choice, i need to save money hard.

I haven't breathed the outside air for 2 good days. Basically, stucked my butts at home. Why? Because my sunburns are too horrendous! (Esp my face!) Omg anyone knows how to cure sunburns and 'whiten' my skin back?! Regrets.

My MP WendeeToh says i'm a RP (RoastedPork), and that my face's like Singapore Flag. Half red half white. Thanks, bestie. -.- (Well, she's also a RP! :D)

Anyway, my face started to peel today. And it makes me feel that my faces feels so old and wrinkled. Sis Rouhui came over my place last night. Stayover, movie and using-our-laptops marathon till 6am.

And so darling came over to my place this morning during his 2 hours lunch break. No choice, gotta force myself out of my oh-so-comfy bed. He rested in my room whilst i cooked for him. Ate and bathed, and he left shortly, back to his camp. And i actually continued sleeping till like 7pm just now?! I really suspect i've contracted some sleep-super-long-still-cannot-wake-up illness.

See lah, now i feel so energetic. Msn-ing with Yanhan now. :) Oh yes, and also my dear aunty michelle meow, please don't be sad okay?! Aunty Joy is always here for you. Hugs.

幸福真的不容易. I don't know when is this gonna quit hurting me. :'(

5:31 AM

I am overburnt. More than just sunburn. (!!)

I swear i will not tan so much like yesterday anym. It's real scary. The pain kills me like nobody's business. Sentosa day! But nonetheless, my day was so much loved with my girlfriends, Wendee & Reg. They simply brighten up my whole day. After all the goods and bads, they're still my only ones. So close, so dear to me. :)

Met bernice at j8's Coffee Bean and talked & talked alot of some stuffs. Its real nice talking our hearts out. :) And i'm home. So tired, whole body hurts.

Oh yes, i haven't slept for 2 days. You really left me so confused. I really don't know what you want. Do you know that i'm so disappointed? You hurt me time and time again. Nvm. Bye.

9:33 AM

Past two days were beautifully spent with him. Spent almost whole day at ST yesterday, doing parts of his car. Watched vcd and rot there practically. And at night, darling and i went for dinner together with edwin and linda at sakae heeren. Didn't got to eat much, not hungry. But still enjoyed as a whole with them! Funny! :D

Then later at night went down to Mr Bean to chill. Talked and talked alot with linda. She's a very nice lady! Cheer up babe. :)

Chilled all the way till around 1plus am, and kang, yc, billy, bernice they came. Wah our cars all parked along the roadside one straight line. Cool! Then all drove down to yishun dam and slack. Raced along with them on the highway. Slacked at dam all the way till around 4am. (!!)
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Dozed off almost immediately when went back to baby's house. And both of us actually woke up at like 6pm today?! Super unbelievable. Didn't realise i was so tired. Dined at amk central and i'm finally home. AND I'M FEELING TIRED NOW AGAIN ALR.

Sentosa tomorrow with my two girlfriends! Can't wait! Joy is so happy and bliss with my girlfriends! :D

FLU AND COUGH CAN REALLY BE A PEST! :(

12:18 PM

Omg, it's already friday. Almost one whole week gone! My holidays are slipping away. :(

Friday friday friday - HIPHOP practice today! Yays, super loved. After practice, left to town for dinner with AUNTY MEOW, Michelle! Hahaha. Took train with ben too. Aunty meow really laughed super loud you know. So embarressing. :x (!!)

THAI EXPRESS FOR DINNER! Soft Shell Crabs + Yellow Curry + Lemon Grass Chicken Wings + Prawn Paste Seafood Fried Rice = ULTIMATE FATNESS! Omg, past week of diet feels so futile! My stomach is still very big till now. :( But, satisfaction! Burps!

Going out with Aunty Meow can be so ever crazy! She screams like nobody's business! Haha. Nonetheless, my day was enjoyed with her! Yays. :D

7:50 AM

I just realised my blog is VERY WORDY. (!!)

So like what Yanhan said, "i shall be lazy to write and edit more pics from now on." Haha right, photoshopper? xD

Yes, finally went down to ST powered yesterday. Darling's gonna get his car tuned. Yays. And so, stayed over at ST for hours man. Desmond and Ah Dee really made us laughed soo hard i tell you. YES, I SAW MY MP WENDY at Amk Hub toooo! And at night, went to find mom. Dinner!

Well, stucked my butts at home today. You see, mom's complaining that i haven't been spending time at home. :( Hur. So, yeah. And i brought sis out for dinner. Pastamania. Bought a striped polo tee also. Nothing much today. Dull and bored, yet a small sense of satisfaction! *Blings!*

CAN SOMEONE FIND A PART-TIME JOB FOR ME, PRETTY PLEASE? I promise i'll be your best friend! :P

Woooo! Omg it's R34!! Another WRX.Me and Baby's WRX. Cars at ST.Fav pic!During car washing, my dear and maomao bear!Its 4.03am now. Good night earthlings.

闭上你的眼,我在你身边. 晚安, 我的宝贝. ♥

10:12 AM

Well well well, i'm in the midst of enjoying my boring holidays. But who cares? I rather prefer holidays than school days! Hoho. Most of my bestfriend's polys haven't even started their holidays yet. I miss them like crazy already. Boooos. :(

Have been spending most of my days with Baby and Bernice. :) My poor darling is having his reservice this week, must be very tired. But it's so much better than working! At least can get to meet him so much more.

Ytd night went for late supper, chilled at Yishun. Supposed to go to the dam and slack but end up at coffeeshop. Chat with jacky and johnathan they, ate and blah. And they left. Then saw edwin, and we continued sitting and chatting. Some probs came up and blah. Then kang, yc and others came aft that also. Saw someone whom i don't wish to see also. Dont wish to mention anymore alrdy. Upsets me only. Sigh.

Today's first hiphop IG official lesson! Wheeees! Earlier on had some games and refreshments! Games were super fun lah, all of us laughed so hard man. Got closer with Michelle! Omg both of us were being super 'aunty' i tell you. And she laughs like me. (VERY HIGH PITCH!) Hahaha! Both of us so 38 lah. :D Chat chat chat non stop during lessons. Oh yes, had BREAKDANCE lessons today. My gosh it's killin' me. All those stuns and tactics. BabyFreeze, 6Steps, TopRock, Swipe. Whaoooooooo. Killer. My hands are breaking.

After lessons walked to mrt with Michelle, still kept chattering all the way! Hahah. And then took train to find Baby. Poor him, soo tired today. At night, drove down to dam and slack. Met jacky, johnathan, tina and others over there. BBQ!

Okay i'm chatting with Michelle now, and shes making laughing like a retard so loudly in my room alone. -.- HAHAHA. She's damn cuteeeeeee! :D Okay. And my hands are feeling very numb now. I don't know why. :( Good night darlings.

Darling at my house. :)

Snapped by darling when eating.

Omg. Super retarded. -.- HAHA!

3 retards!

My blur baby after his sleep on the phoneee!

MIANYANGGGGG!!!

Mianyang and me!!

Cherry, Michelle & Joy! :D

The girl tt makes me laughs till......

Finally can do baby freeze!

Heres a blur glance at my hiphop studio! (P.s: The guys are not falling! They're doing breakdance stuns!)

12:18 AM

I feel more and more loved day by day, in your arms.

And so, 2 weeks holidays officially starts! :D Oh-wee-lala-hurrayyyy! But sadly, my dear's going for re-service man on the 4th of June till 13th June. :(

Anyhow, yesterday i went over to darling's place. But of course, he's not at home, but working. Went over to find Bernice (his sis), and had early dinner together, before we cabbed down to Bugis to have our hair cut and do treatment tgt. :) Went down to Chapter 2 saloon, and yesssssss i've made some slight change to my hair already. Satisfied and happy! Shorter fringe now. :D Plus high-end treatments! Bernice and i went like so chattering all the way. Haha.

While having treatment and blowing hair, the saloon blacked-out for 4 times man. -.-" And Bernice said her head kept feeling hot and cold (cause the black-out cuts away the electricity & the steamer thingy was turned off 4 times also). Haha! Both of us became a member of Chapter 2 also. Yays!

Wah sian man. But Chapter 2 really quite expensive. Spent $105 just for hair doing. My heart broke a big hole already...................... I'm officially declared bankrupt. Of course, after that we went to find my darling! :) Slacked in the shop, and talked cocked alot with Alan and Nick. And darling's big bro came to fetch us home.

TOMORROW MOMMY ASKED ME TO ASK JOHN HOME FOR DINNER! OMGWTF. :D:D!! And today we went to the supermarket, and mom bought alot of ingredients. Cooking curry and beehoon tmr. Yayyyyy. Feeling so excited and nervous also lah. :D

Milo looking so smart! Hehe. :D

New hair done at Chapter 2 Saloon inside. :)

Back home. :) (Sis play a fool behind!)