Dear Diary.... ♥

11:28 PM

My last post for year 2007..

Year 2007, what can i say? It's the most memorable year, the most beautiful year, the most toughest year, the most loveliest year i've been through.

I learnt alot. Life-long lessons. Being exposed to many different sides of the world, knowing how to love, how to sacrifise, and also how to learn to be hard and tough, stand on my own feets. Precious and wonderful moments, unforgettable.. With friends, my family, with him & his whole family doting me, throughout this year.

Having my two bestest girls with me, side-by-side always, wendy & reg. Been through so much so much for 6 years, going 7 years. :) What's more. God's given angels to me.. Dada, bernice, shadow, etc. And also, when i first stepped into poly life. How dejected i once were.. Knowing people who really changed my life in school too, like michelle, jo, kaiwei, etc. I'm simply so contented.

Although i had my toughest days.. Going through the hardest way alone myself, i once pushed away everyone who cared for me, even family and friends. I realised many lessons learnt in life. Each and every person gotta depend on ownself to carve a way out. But never once have i ever regretted.. Never. :) Everything that i've been through this year, changed me, my life. Joy has grown up, both physically and mentally.

In fact, i thank god for year 2007. A fruitful one. But i know, it's not just gonna end here. It's not.. :)

For year 2008, i simply just wish for happiness all day along always with my loved ones. Just purely simple happiness that could keep me going on & on. And of cos, studies improving and improving. I'll put in more effort this year onwards, marking my goals! :) 加油！

Here, i wish everyone an advanced HAPPY NEW YEAR! Enjoy. ^-^

A short lil section to see how i've grown since young till... year 2007. People, PLEASE, try to control your laughters.

Yesyes, shocked? This is my girl wendee and me. Look at how we were like? I was the fattest one with specs. -.-"

Then i went on diet.. (HAHA!!!) During sec sch days with my darby!

Year 2007 onwards.. Days working at sony. And this is where my journey begins.

My very light-coloured hair..

Then i dyed jet black..

Then it faded to brown after a period of time. Mid year, when i cut my fringe..

And the recent me now! :)

Bye 2007, Hello 2008. Y

1:32 AM

My left eye has been hurting since last night. Might be due to late nights.

These few days made me realised alot. Alot. Oh yes, and i'm still receiving xmas presents even till now! And my upcoming adidas jacket soon. Yay.. :P

It has always been a very bad habit for me, because whenever i'm having holidays, i'll always tend to sleep & wake up very late. Unhealthy.. Time to tune back to normal sleeping hours. (Hopefully.)

And yesterday, piggy day. ^^ Haha. Went to rent vcd and watch.. It's been a long time since i've last watched movies at home. Slacked and lazed around like a big lazy bum till 7plus.

We were supposed to watch National Treasure last night. But due to my lazybum-ness.. Got nagged le lo. Hurhur.. But still, headed down to bugis to meet sebas and felicia. Walked around for awhile.. And our main objective for the night, STEAMBOAT! :)

10pm then we started heading there for dinner. So late.. Steamboat dinner at the back of bugis there, one word, shiok. Ate and ate and ate. And of cos, laughed like nobody's business. Too crappy.

Today is my resting-cum-saving-money day. Have to pamper myself abit more. Doing facial last night, and also today!

Mahjong session tonight.. ^-^ Gonna prepare and meet bernice already. Tata~

I miss all my girlfriends. Y

Be wise.

12:27 PM

It's exactly 4.30am now. This is crazy.

Oh yes, merry blessed christmas to everyone!

Actual christmas day was crap.. Seriously.

I spent almost more than half a day of my christmas day on bed. Reason being, i was sick. Down with horrible flu. Woke up quite early and went out with whole family today in the afternoon. Headed to AMK hub to walk walk.

And i pulled mom along to do pedicure. Classic pedicure. Hoho. :P Sorry mom, made you spend a bomb. But we both enjoyed the whole process. And she was even tempted and signed up and bought a package. Means... I've free manicure and pedicure sessions now! Up to 10 sessions. Keke.

Was walking & walking around, it was when my flu virus attacked me. Started sneezing like nobody's business. AND THEN...
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Stupid clumsy elephanty me was walking down a short flight of stairs, where i accidentally missed one step and landed right on the platform and i sprained my ankle AGAIN. Great. -.- And my flu's been increasing my drowsiness dosage. Headed back home and slept from 8pm onwards.

Nightmares again, woke me up. Hugged mianyang so tightly. I couldn't get back to sleep. And so, here i am.. -.- Anyway, tomorrow is another brand new day.

Oh yes, speaking about my XMAS EVE night..

Sorry peeps. I didn't take photos tt day cos i was using my 6300. Camera sucks you know. Hurhur. And so.. Went over to meet bernice in the early afternoon. Was supposed to accompany aunty for shopping at bugis. But bernice complains it's too early and rushy..

Mimi brightened up my day! He was practically so excited and happy when i popped by, till he kept jumping on my legs and wagged his tail vigorously. Aww.. Miss you so much! Tt lazy lil brat was lying so comfortably on bernice's bed. Then he suddenly came out, lied down with his fat tummy facing me and expecting me to sayang and play with him.

Received gifts from her too! Bought from melbourne. Sweet, thanks girl. =)

Rested awhile while waiting for her to bathe and get ready.. After which, cabbed down to Vivocity for shopping. Companied her to shop for her presents. Went over to best denki to get one of her presents too, and find alice there too. So long never see her! We talked quite awhile and smiled soo widely throughout. :)

Shopped till evening and we parted on our own ways. Headed to town to find cbk gang. Omg i hate town. Zz so packed. And they even wanted to sing kbox. So freaking expensive la. -.-"

And so, i reserved a sofa-seat table at NOS and all of us headed down there instead. Finally out of orchard. Phew. Sang, drank, and played 5-10 throughout. It was super crazy and funny when it comes to playing 5-10. Laughed till stomachache.

3:04 AM

Holidays + Christmas seasons = More quality time spent with dear friends. And also friends that i've haven't been meeting up for ages, esp my sec school cliques.

All the funs we used to had, hanging around tgt, studying tgt during sec school days. Haven't had much time for them since this year..

Going to meet up my dearest sec school cliques today and tomorrow. Tonight later meeting Lihua, Xx, Kel and gang. Might be heading to pub. Shall see how again.

And tomorrow... Xmas eve outing with cbk gang. ^-^ Will update soon again!

7:43 AM

I want a adidas jacket.

And so.. Good Luck Chuck was a very very nice show! Intimate scenes of course, but it's story line is seriously very touching and hilarious. Thumbs up. I haven't enjoyed a movie that much for quite long alr. :) 5/5 stars rating!

Town area is soo crowded. Goodness, esp christmas season. I hate crowds. I don't wish to step in town area all the way till 2008 already i reckon. After movie, headed for partyworld k session finally. Marathon singing! Aha. Sing till morning, sing till all of us dozed off!
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Orchard lightings.

Doesn't rick looks like the chipmunk Theodore? Soo funny! Haha~

Candid.

Sebas sings so well..

Took rick's snowcap and take pics. Lol!

Public holiday on thursday..

Is my shopping day with darling linda and shadow and her baobei. Enjoyed myself so so so much. Been so long time since i've enjoyed shopping like tt too. Really shopped till we dropped! Lol. Bought xmas gifts for sis and mummy. ^-^ Left with my loved ones gifts, waiting for my pay to come. Ugh!

Headed home with my darling. So happy. ^o^ And we still went down tgt and had supper and chatted alot. Finally had a good night sleep...

Shop shop shop! Look at our shopping bags. Haha.

With my girls at Taka.

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Cos i slept till 3pm in the noon! Goodness me. Haha. Watched vcd and all, then at night headed down to Clarke Quay Central Mall and find my Wendee and her Jeff. Yes, Wendee's finally back from bangkok! Yay. Haha, and they're so sweet now! Happy for them. :)

And guess what? My girl actually did hair extention at bangkok! PRETTY GIRL NOW! Wooo~ Oh oh yes, thanks for the lovely necklace sweety. I love it. =D

We were supposed to have Japanese meal for dinner. But she doesn't feel like eating it. And so, we walked around and ended up at Clarke Quay river there.. Had dinner at HOT STONES. Yum yum too! I had salmon hotplate. Goodness, the oil splattered all over, so painful and hot and... OILY! But nonetheless, it's heavenly. ^-^

Stuffed cheese with chicken. It's soo delicious. Melts.

Troublesome to eat, but still, yummylicious salmon! ^-^

Take i-phone and cam-whore again.

I have no idea why i gave that face while using my hp. -.-"

My girl and i. Beautiful xmas deco outside Central Mall. :)

After tt she left with Jeff for home. :( And so, we roamed around and finally decided to go to Mustafa centre. Cos i feel like shopping and city area is already closed. Hah Hah. Their items over there are reallyyy cheap! Got a mouse for my laptop, and 1GB Sandisk MMC. Guess how much........?!
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$20!! For a 1GB MMC. Omg.

And then lastly, headed to geylang 126 Dim Sum for supper. Been craving for it for a long time.. :)

I'm hungry while looking at the pic of the menu again. Ahhh.. Dim sum!

I always got ugly candid shot. -.-"

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Oh yah, i placed those nicely wrapped presents i bought for mom and sis under the beautiful, shimmering christmas tree in our living room. Both of them are so excited to know what's in it. So cute! >.<

My beautiful xmas tree shimmering with glittery lights. So pretty. ^-^

Seriously, my nokia hp's camera sucks alot. :( Poor resolution! I think i'm gonna change back to using my k800i again.

At the end of every day, i still end up with precious mianyang, hugging it tightly to sleep.. I smell your smell.

7:09 AM

I'm at cine now and its 11.14pm. ^^

Now using I-phone to blog. So hard to type! -.- Watching Good Luck Chuck later. My first R21 movie! And hopefully partyworld session after show. (I think I took 20min just to type this short pathetic sentence.)

Anyway, its TIME TO WAKE UP.

6:46 AM

Again and again, nightmares of That still....

Currently listening to: Wo Ke Yi - Cai Min You.

How special, how meaningful this song is to me..

I kinda regretted.. Was so busy during my study-and-work period till i forgot and skipped my photoshoot. (!!!) There goes my portfolio for this shooting. :( Sorry to the person-in-charge.

Sighhh, ohwell, soon again i guess. Can't miss the next photoshooting session anymore! Someone please remind this muddle-head me in future. =(

Speaking of photoshooting,

I have one wish. A wish that i love to have a beautiful photoshoot together with the the person i love most, and us owning our own portfolio. Imagining me dressing up beautifully, and my love one with his most charming suit, taking the most beautiful shots together, having the most beautiful moments captured ever.

How wonderful can that ever be...

Helplessly being drained back to the reality.
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To cut the whole story short, yesterday, something suddenly striked me to head to 四马路 Guanyin temple to seek for divination again. Questions in my heart i couldn't answer..

And met my girl regina for shopping awhile till evening. At night met loy for dinner at pepper lunch then sebas came to find us. I'm starting to find town boring. Zz.. Went home quite early. Bout 11 plus, cos my heels were killing me. So painful.

And today, i'm being a good sister. Brought my meimei out for movie (since she keeps making a fuss out of it). Brought her to amk hub and watched Alvin and the Chipmunks again. And i'm glad she enjoys it alot, by hearing her loud laughters in the cinema. ~_~"

Headed back to cwp and met mom. Renewed my hp contract finally and i decided to just get a Nokia 6300. For the sake of it's design and slimness. Ohmy the camera sucks. -.- I'm glad i've got my k800i still. (For photo-taking and cam-whoring. :P) I will never trade in my phone, cos it's simply too important to me.

WHEN WILL MY PAY COME?!?! Ahhh. Moneyyyyy~ Hurhur. Sigh, this year's xmas and new year.......

6:15 AM

Aching, empty.

I'm not working anymore. Yes, surprising, out of a sudden isn't it? Due to some probs. Sigh, but still, thanks boss for offering to find another job for me. :)

I'm gonna miss all my sweeties there. :'( I'm serious.

More time to rest, finally. Slept almost throughout the whole day today. I can be an extremist in terms of sleeping. Lol. And so, yesterday night met up with my lessy nadia. (!!) Soo long haven't seen her too. Misses so much! Aww.

Met up with ryan, chris and his friend too. Of course, together with my nadia too. Heh. Shopped a lil only, then loy came. All of us headed for movie @ cine. Alvin and the chipmunks. It's such a cuteee and funny show! Ohmy. Super cute till i couldn't resist! Ahhh.. 4/5 stars!

After movie, loy, nad, ryan and me headed to selegie Mr Bean. So long haven't been there. And i specially ordered it's Peach Smoothie there. Special to me.. After eating at Mr Bean, went to eat tow huay. Soo many people there. Sat, laughed, crapped alot there till 2am like tt.

Then mr noisy car came to pick me. Chatted, chatted and chatted alot till late. Thanks for sending! :)

Today early morning mom dragged and forced me out of bed. I was in a very foul mood almost the whole day. I don't know why. Sigh. Sorry mom. Wanted to go renew my handphone contract. But, stupid terms and conditions made me so headache. Wth. And i bought the heels i've been wanting to get all along at Charles & Keith today too. But i don't seem to like it as much as tt time alr eh. Zz.

Gonna head down to the handphone shop again tomorrow. Most prob getting red colour k810i, or Nokia 6300. (I like it's design and slimness) Cos it's free. :) Thou it's practically almost the same as my current phone, Still, i go for the functions and specs.

Sigh. My two girls went overseas on the same day. Wendee went Thailand, Bernice went Melbourne. I'm gonna be so bored and missing them so much. Come back quickly k? :( I miss u girls. Have fun. ^-^

MY BORING WEEKENDS. HATE IT.

6:05 PM

Seriously, i hate late nights. Still..

Alright, back to rambling. I finally met my darling on tues! Ohmy, was so happy to see her. Imagine, the moment i met her, we hugged! =) Aww. And so, we headed to amk. Companied her to trim her brows at central and walked around. Then manicures at amk hub.

Then met with friends for dinner together. After which, headed to saloon and did my hair! Haha, out of random. But i still prefer my straight hair. Cos my face looked even more fatter and i looked soooo matured with permed hair. -_-"

Stayed there till quite late eh. Haha, slack in the saloon when it's closed already. Yup, i definately enjoyed my day very much with her! :)
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Do i look like a body-less ghost? Haha no lah, rainy weather is really cold. I'm glad i've got my comforter. :)

My dressing for tt day. I practically just wore my everlast jacket only tts all. Hardly dress till so daring.. O.o

At the saloon..

Darling linda. ^-^

Poof! My fat face with this curled hair! -.-

And yesterday, was late for school again. Sigh, so hard to kick off that bad habit. Anyway, left school early and met bernice and vicki. Headed down to far east. Bernice and i helped vicki to be her make-up models. Cool experience!

Bernice's make up was superrrr thick and artistic. I really meant it. Cos the theme of hers is Creative. Haha, but it's really cool. Whereas mine, is Evening Bridal Gown make up. (phew, lucky!) The whole make-up thingy took the whole afternoon. Then evening, vicki's bf came down and we all had dinner together. Walked around for awhile more and headed home. Shag..

Imagine how tired i was yesterday. I practically fell asleep while standing in the mrt! Omg it's really horrible. Extreme alr. -.- Luckily i didn't see any familiar faces taking the same train as me. Or else... it's gonna be super embarressed la!

1 more day to holidays. Y

Bernice's artistic make up.

I didn't dare to take photos of myself at the studio itself. Soo thick eye-shadow make up!

Pardon my hand. I didn't sprain my neck or what. -.- Wanted to show my new bracelet i've just bought ytd! :P

Home sweet home! Tts my cute mommy using my lappy. Love to bits. :)

5:51 PM

I shall sit back and watch... God definately has eyes to see. Amen. =)

PROTEST PROTEST!

Taxi cab fares are increasing another 30cents MORE. What-the-hell. Cab fares are already so ex, and they're still increasing. Zz. Governments are really blood suckers.

SINGAPOREANS. Really..... Tsk. -.-

Oh yes, my body really 'collapsed' yesterday. Finally, the tiredness i've accumulated was unbearable already. I didn't went to school yesterday, and slept alllllll the way till 4pm. End up, got chided by mom. Zz. Try putting yourself in my shoes and see if you're even more tired than me.

But still, i'll not give up. I can't.

Ugh, suddenly so many things came crashing into my brains till i got so fustrated last night. Thou holidays are approaching, but my schedules and all are still so messed up. Felt so 'pek chek' last night. Sorry that i anyhow threw my temper and you still had to please and give in to me. :( End up i pissed you off too. Haha. Stupid me.

Ooooh.. I can't wait to meet my darling after school, after her work ends later. Been weeks since we've last met! Ahhh. 好想她哦! :) Pedicure and dinner tonight.

Pictures of me for the past few weeks. Sorry for not uploading e pics uh.
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I look soo kiddish in this big shades. ~_~

Timmy and me! After work, chilling at starbucks. Lovely xmas tree behind us! (:

She's clare! She's such a darling and loves to stick with me the whole day. =P

In the midst of enjoying steamboat dinner at restaurant..

Stop snapping my ugly candid pics alr la! Haha.

Look at her.. Wearing my scarf. Soo cute right?

Irrisistable darling! =D

She uses my hp and take this pic of us. Errr... Haha.

MY WENDEE LOVEEEE. =D

Ahem! *Coughs coughs* Hahaha. My wendee and Jeff uh. :P

Taken in cab. (I'm gonna hate cabs next week onwards) Haha.

8:28 AM

My everydays are really tight and busy. I really can't describe how tired i am. I just hope my body won't fall apart, soon.

Mon to fri, everyday long hours of school. Then weekends still gotta work FULL shifts. I really need a break. I can't wait for holiday to come. Ahhh, just tahan for another week alright.

Alright, i looked horrendous now. Eyebags returned. Nightmare! Due to lack of sleep every night. (I don't even have a 'off' day for me to rest.)

Back to my past few days...

Friday after school, went aljunied with loy. Sooo far. -.-" Then after tt at night met bernice and the rest of the girls. Feels like i haven't seen her for so long. (But althou it's only a few days la.) Haha. Total theres 7 girls of us, including lesmine, amy, cindy, shirui and i couldn't rmb alr. Drinking session night. But i didn't drink in fact. Only a few sips and i stopped. Cos my stomach was in terrible pain the whole night. And i just companied them, played games and sang songs. Went home earlier cos i really couldn't take it. Felt really terrible. Reached home bout 2 am plus.

Next day, HELL. Full shift work. Woke up at 8plus am for work, allllllll the way till 10plus at night. PLUSPLUS, standing in heels the whole day. I don't know how to describe the feeling.... -_-"

After work, MY WENDEE CAME DOWN TO FIND MEEEE! Omfg, i was super happy to see her. Ahhh, my sweet darling actually waited for me till after work, and we went out for supper. Went town. Heh. Loveeeee and miss her so much! We never fail to crap and laugh super retardly whenever we're tgt. Of cos, with the company of Jeff and Loy too. ^-^

Sometimes althou it's really tough to survive at work, no matter how hard it is, i still have to perservere. No matter how much i wanna give up, motivation comes. It's really sweet and heart-warming when your beloved friends would pop by at your workplace while you're working just to surprise you. It's enough to motivate you to work. :)

Thanks friends. You guys are really love.

6:36 PM

Torn -

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how
I feel Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn, torn.

8:09 PM

I feel that i've really been leaving my precious blog in a lurch for so long. I'm sorry, for being so selfish. Partly is because i really do not know what to say. Everything seems to be very contridicting.

Nevertheless, this is what i'm telling myself. Be contented with life now. Nothing's easy, and nothing's always so simple as you think. Truth still has to be revealed one fine day. :) Unfortunately, this is life. Forced to accept.

Anyway, i've been trying veryyyyyyy hard to enjoy life now. Trying trying trying. I hope i can.. But thank god, i felt much better with some money in my pocket now. Hohoho~ Shopping is my forte now i must say? I should pamper myself more now. But still, must control and cannot overspend. Dear friends, please remind and control me! You guys should know my pattern. :P

Shopping doesn't just stop here first! Xmas shopping still. SALES EVERYWHERE COMING UP. *Drooling!*

This whole week has been my shopping week. I managed to bought a dress, a scarf, and aunty also bought me a vintage clutch handbag! Thanks so much. Oh my, so contented. I'm left with my pretty heels to buy. :P

Andand, i've received a surprise that really made my day sooo much! Shocked, but nonetheless, really very happy. So the summarized story goes like this..

I was shopping ard last time with oinky, and went into Coach boutique. At that time, managed to got a coach wristlet. I was already super happy. Then as we were at the counter making payment, i was browsing through those little pretty charms, keychains and handphone straps. And i was so drifted off and wanted to get a pretty Coach hp strap when i got my pay. But no particular design yet thou.

And guess what now?! While i was on the phone yesterday, that silly head asked me to dig into the little pocket inside my big bag, and claimed that he lefted his things inside my bag. So, i did, and saw a pouch. When i opened it up, it's a pretty pink Coach handphone strap! My goodness, i couldn't describe how surprised i was at that moment.

And that particular hp strap design is still not out yet in singapore. He actually saw it online on the Coach website and got it in New York. How sweeet, thanks so much! You definately made my day! :D
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This is the pretty coach hp strap i was refering to. Only found in U.S & N.Y i supposed.

The pouch i found in my bag..

And it's my pretty lil surprise!! :) Thanks a million!

More pics up soon. Maybe tonight. ^^