2:11 PM
How long haven't i really broken down.....? I lost count.
I really can't take it anymore. I had enough of acting and faking the cheerful Joy infront of everyone. Just let me cry till i go blind and scream till i lost my voice and pain till i can't take it once and for all tonight. Just tonight.
I'm just a human. I really really really need a break. I'm too tired.
It's time i break down.
I'm sorry my dear friends, i can't be the noisy, always smiling, joker, cheerful Joy anymore. For NOW. The cheerful joyful Joy will be back. Promise.
This time, i will be different.